Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Beautiful Disaster

"...He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?
He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster"

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

One falls down
And another.
Faster, swifter they come.
Cold shiver...
My body goes numb,
As each one passes.
I let it all go,
My everything.
As if they were a piece of me
Being ripped away
And torn to shreds.
But, to you,
They are nothing,
Lifeless beings,

Tuesday, July 18, 2006


Over the past three months I have been writing many, many thank you notes. What I have written in those notes are just a small reflection of how grateful Braden and I are for all the gifts and money we have received for our wedding. We have been so blessed with such supportive and caring people surrounding us.....our faimily, friends, and church family.
Prayers, words of encouragement, and the gifts we have received have overwhelmed me with gratitude. It amazes me that these people, some of whom I haven't even met before, even care. They could just say something like, "oh, when we first got married we had hardly anything, they should fend for themselves like we did", or whatever; but they don't!!! I never want to take these people for granted.
I pray that someday, I also may bless others around me as we have been blessed.....a newly married couple like us, a college student, or whoever........regardeless if I am close with them or not. I am to show the love of Christ to eveyone around me...it is what we, as Christians, are called to do. We should always be looking for ways to show love towards each other, everyday!

Romans 12
9Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. 10Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. 11Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. 12Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. 13Share with God's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. 15Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.
17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. 18If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"says the Lord. 20On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Friday, July 14, 2006


One week of work left.
Two weeks til the wedding. Not nervous at all...this is what I want to do.
There's still alot to do, but we'll get it done. Mostly all that is left are things we can't do until the week of the wedding anyways...that's why I won't be working. I'm exctied.
My personal shower/bachlorette party is tomorrow. That should be fun! : )

We still need an apartment...at this point all we can do about that is pray that an opening will pop up...we've done all we can up to this point.

Friday, July 7, 2006


It is close week at work.
I have a little over 2 weeks left here.
I wanna be anywhere but here.
Work sucks...life will go on.